♥Saturday, July 18, 2009 } 10:52 AM
She's not the kind of girl
You hear about
She'll never want another
She'll never be without
She'll give you all the signs
She'll tell you everything
Then turn around and walk away
Carry me to the shoreline
Bury me in the sand
Walk me across the water
And maybe you'll understand
After everything, you'll only maybe understand.
♥Friday, July 17, 2009 } 10:09 AM
Talk about great expectations.
Maybe i should practise what i preach and follow what i told my friend that day. That we shouldnt expect too much because it's a 100% confirmed we'd get disappointed right.
Applies to everything.
And i hate being sick. Feels like i'm some kinda fucking weak person.
Feels like fuck.
Hate the world now.
Hate life.
Hate his ******
Maybe i take back the last one.
I dont know. i just feel like shit. i hate everything. INCLUDING PASTA.
♥Monday, July 13, 2009 } 8:08 AM
If you want me to love you, you have to love me thrice as much.
♥Sunday, July 12, 2009 } 3:03 AM
Being surrounded by death and sickness isnt a very funny thing. It gives you a sort of reminder that there is pain and suffering in the world.
If there's anything i've learnt in the past few weeks of dad's mum's death and mum's mum's sickness it's about how we live our lives.
Baby said the other day that thinking about everything in his life, he's lived life.
Well i havent.
I used to say if i die tomorrow everyone will have to celebrate my life. And then now i think about it. What's there to celebrate?
I havent had the fun i wanted to have.
I havent done what i've truely enjoyed doing.
I havent been angry enough at the people who have done me wrong.
I havent spent time with so many friends that are overseas.
I havent played my favourite sport in forever.
I havent learnt what i wanted to learn.
I havent laughed enough.
So maybe making a list of the things you want to accomplish isnt so lame after all.
MAYBE WE SHOULD ALL MAKE A BUCKET LIST.
a list of things to do before we kick the bucket.
i know for sure i want to:
ride a bicycle
go for a bike ride
Race
ice skate over and over again
dance in the middle of the road at night
have a picnic in the pastures of new zealand
Paint my own house
Drive an expensive car
Stay in fullerton for a night
Slow dance in the rain
be a wild girl for a week
party hardcore
play paintball
maybe.
besame mucho my love.
we only live once.
♥Saturday, July 4, 2009 } 12:41 PM
i dont like to be stuck in your web of discomfort.
That's your own problem.
So the weekend is coming to an end.
And e-learning week is also coming to an end.
I'm really gonna hate going back to school cause it's so much easier for me if everything were just done online.
It would really help my travel expense in terms of time and money.
I feel i waste most of my life on public transport. bUT there's no other way. grrr
Baby's supposed to show me him COOL suit later for ndp. But i highly doubt he'd remember.
anyways. night time now.
i want to be stuck in a dream thats too good to be true. i want to!
♥Monday, June 29, 2009 } 10:15 PM
I'm quite happy in my own space.
But I'm just trying to please everyone
I want to make things simple again.
Just like how they were.
Then we'd all be happy.
wheeeeeeeeE!!
♥Sunday, June 28, 2009 } 7:34 AM
Hi Baby.
Do you remember the time when i love you's didnt come by, but our hearts were screaming it.
The time when just my presence meant the world to you.and yours to mine.
Maybe the distance if finally taking it's toll on me. I think i've tried more ways than one.
I remember when the company just meant everything and nothing to do meant lots of things to do.
Today i may have crossed the line. But i dont know why i feel so numb all of a sudden.
Today i felt how sudden emptiness feels like again. The feeling when we walked and didnt hold hands.
Today i realised that i need you more than i know.
7 months in the making. And i just only realise that i want this so much more than i thought i did.
I used to want you.
But now i want all of you.
I hope it isnt that much to ask of you.
Cause i want you to want me too.
Not just a little, but all of me.
And when that day comes.
you'll make me the happiest girl on earth.
